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Day 6 Merry Xmas

This is my Xmas Tree this year.  It's the first tree I've set up since my son was a little kid.  You know what?  I like it. Yes I like it.

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  1. Tanya KristineDecember 20, 2014 at 9:40 AM

    I have had only a few heart-warming home decorations. but i love when i love it.

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