I’m kind of spent this week. I’m not sure what it is. I’ve had a headache that started in June and it wreaks havoc every once in a while. Really torments me. When the worst of it subsides it stays at a level 2 or 3 but my body gets worn out. Coupled with the therapy I’m doing, the work I’m doing with my sponsor, staying clean, and going to work I’m fatigued to the bone. Writing these blogs takes a toll too. I feel like I’m stuck at 13 again and I wonder why. I fall back into the “what do I want to do with my life” zone. At 59 it seems like most people would have pretty much wound up what they’ve done and now are ready to simply enjoy the golden years. I seriously don’t think I have that much time left so I’d like the remaining time to count in some enriching way. My resting heart beat is around 90 so I’ve pretty much gone through most of my allotted beats. I’m learning about the soul, my soul though. It’s sensitive, wielding, generous but needy to a degree